... IN RESPONSE TO ADDICTION HELP...please do not talk to us like were stubid, we know its bad for our health!!!..HAPPY-FUZZY I applaud u for gettin clean from meth that tells me u hav innerstrengh,morals & dterminaton. Noone i know has managed that victory,no one i know has even tried,they live in denial.. when people like" ADDICTION HELP," say "quit it's bad for u",i get revved up..if it was that friggen easy i would of done it 9 yrs ago,thats when i started my inner Quest of knowledge. Igav up for 8 months after a friend died(not a overdose,THE LIFESTYLE. killed him!!bad business,mind games,false mates,paronia, lonlyness,desparation),My partner & i did not handle greif 2 well,we blocked out the pain,& played hard..HE ended up LEAVING ME..(he'd lost the plot..nervous breakdown)that was the final straw 4 me..i was now responsible for my kids furture alone(my kids r my love,my world,),i went cold turkey couldn't even numb the stress with cones, for the 1st time in16yrs they gav me anxiety instead of calmness.I FAILED..i now use gear again once week,i pay bills, work,and i'm a dam good mom(betta then alot of straight folks i know),but i hide my secret from all,i too just want to b happy & whole,but my head is screwed, i'm scared of reality and the pressures,&bordem it brings,i only feel normal & human when using..when straight i don't feel connected to my body, i interact as if i'm a third person, i say the right things but my mind is else were,socialising stresses me,i'm a smart girl i know about power of perpective,psychology,brain chemicals, health concerns,but i crave time 2 feel normal,excited happy & motivated so i use..HELP ME TOO,